On the Eighth Anniversary of Mark's Death

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

On the Eighth Anniversary of Mark's Death
This Edna St. Vincent Millay poem captures my experience of grief like no other.

Time does not bring relief; you all have lied
Who told me time would ease me of my pain!
I miss him in the weeping of the rain;
I want him at the shrinking of the tide;
The old snows melt from every mountain-side,
And last year's leaves are smoke in every lane;
But last year's bitter loving must remain
Heaped on my heart, and my old thoughts abide.
There are a hundred places where I fear
To go,--so with his memory they brim.
And entering with relief some quiet place
Where never fell his foot or shone his face
I say, "There is no memory of him here!"
And so stand stricken, so remembering him.

updated: 7 years ago


linda carruth davisWednesday, September 1st 2010 10:03PM

a poem by ee cummings says,
"I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)
I am never without it (anywhere I go, you go, my dear and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling.
I fear no fate(for you are my fate, my sweet)
I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true) and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing, is you.

Here is the deepest secret no one knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
higher than the soul can hope or man can hide)
And this is the wonder that keeps the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart).
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life which grows

PainThursday, April 29th 2010 7:53AM

Brenda, no one but you can experience that loss, over and over again.  Do know that you are in the hearts and minds of others regularly.  Edna St. Vincent Millay expressed it so well.

Jeremy ColliverWednesday, April 28th 2010 6:13PM

I just wanted to know that we will start Youth tonight playing "Bad to the Bone" in memory of Mark tonight.
Mark touched so many in such a short time.

Thanks, Jeremy. He was quite the guy. I'm so glad you all are remembering him!